Day 1

Not doing too badly today, though I did just eat some chocolate, oops. It was the last of it though, so now there is none left, which is very good.

I signed up to the total makeover thing on allure.com today, it looks fairly sensible and it's free which is always nice. It's kind of a 6 week kick-start plan I think, it keeps note of what you eat and gives lots of handy exercise and diet tips.

I think one of the key things about doing this healthy thing is to not feel deprived - instead of eating junk I plan to do nice beautifying things, like use face masks and stuff, so I feel nice. Also then I have less of an incentive to eat rubbish because I'll look nicer! I hope.

Today it is baltic and the boiler is leaking in my flat so we are not so keen to put the heating on in case the whole thing breaks, so I'm off to have a shower in a minute to try and warm up, but I could use it as an excuse for a good exfoliation session!

I'm getting into this already!

Straw that broke the camel's back

Today, the day I started this blog, I went to a friend's birthday lunch. Where there was food. A lot of it. And not the most healthy. I could have chosen to eat the healthy stuff, but I didn't, I stuffed my face with junk and rubbish, and what's worse, I came home and ate half a french bread stick for dinner. And a lot of chocolate.

What kind of a dinner is that?! No veg, no fruit, just white bread and chocolate.

What am I doing to my poor body?!?! I feel so sluggish and bloated and CRAP just now, I feel hideous.

And I never want to feel like this again, so TODAY IS THE DAY to start doing something about it. I am so determined not to be the fat girl any more, that I am going to do this, and I will be accountable to this blog, so here goes, wish me luck!

Start at the very beginning...

Right, here goes...

The purpose of this blog is to keep me on the straight and narrow. I figure, if I write on this thing and people might actually read it, then I HAVE to try a little harder to be healthy!

Some background:

I am 23 years old, I am female, I'm about to finish uni and start working for one of the UK's biggest employers which I think will be very stressful, but I am looking forward to it. I've been at uni for a long time, during which I managed to put on quite a lot of weight for various reasons. I'm hating my body at the moment - I feel unfit and frumpy, I have a serious camera phobia and I try desperately to avoid situations in which there may be cameras. Unfortunately, my graduation ball is coming up soon and I know there will be cameras, and I want to enjoy it and not stress about it too much. However, I have a lot of weight to lose, and I know it's not going to all come off in 4 weeks for the ball!

I don't want to be size zero, I think it's hideous, but when I was a bit younger I had curves which I loved, and I was confident and felt good. I would just like to get to the stage where I am not the biggest person in the room, so that I can go and buy clothes without crying when I get home because I look so awful, so that I feel healthy. I used to be a normal weight, so I know it's possible, I would like to get back to that.

My goals are reasonable, I think, and I'm aiming to be healthy rather than thin. I'm also about to start a job where I have to advise people on their lifestyle and I would not like to look like a hypocrite!

So here goes. I will try my best not to wallow in self-pity (as I know, dear reader, how boring that is), but will just tell it how it is.

I have chosen not to advertise this blog on my other, non-fat blog, so if you drop by please leave a note, I'm nice, I promise!